momentary bout

looking for a job is depressing. every time i get on craigslist to browse the job listings, i feel sad. it seems everyone is looking for the superstar guru know it all web person who know every single programming language there is and is an expert with all design and graphics programs. i am not this person! but, i think i have a good sense for design and can code fairly well, i’m just not a programmer. i don’t know everything, but i’m a quick learner. sometimes i think i should just abandon doing web design and do some other field and sell my soul for a steady job. i guess i’ve been feeling self-doubt and a lack of self-confidence since that last “job” i had. i haven’t been turned down for the job i interviewed for, but i feel like i’m just not going to get it and i’m so tired of doing this. maybe i need to move to another city with better opportunities. maybe i need to go back to school and learn what i lack. maybe i need to win the lottery. whine, whine, whine.